Well, it's been awhile since I blogged, thought I'd wait til I saved up a decent amount of stuff to talk about to make a decent entry. Well, it's been over a week now since I've had a cigarette. And I haven't cheated once. Not so much as one little puff off of a cigarette. I've completely dropped them. Saving me some money and aggravation...Let's see if I can keep it up. Here's the sucky part though, I've been suffering from insomnia and depression, I stayed up til like 7 am this morning because I couldn't sleep and I spent like a good hour or two just bawling like an idiot unable to control my emotions. I've missed some work lately because I've just felt blah and completely off and like I'm not even freaking with it at all, and just like unable to function. I hate when the depression kicks in to the point of dehabilitation. My mom made me call my doctor, but he can't get me in for like almost another month. So I guess I'll just keep taking more of my panic meds and just try to see if I can snap myself out of it. IDK. Mom says she also thinks that Josh (my boyfriend) being gone on vacation for about 2 weeks now is part of it and that once he is back she seems to think I'll snap out of it. I don't know what's going on, but as comfortable as I am slipping right back into depression. I like being happy :/ I want it back.
But onto some other topics, life is not all about me, it took me long enough to realize that. I've got some interesting tidbits for everyone to check out. This is a really cool little game: Cut the Rope
! I had quite a bit of fun tooling around, and boy does the lil guy make ya feel bad if you don't get that candy to him.
on another note I found some hilarious harry potter comic things located here
and they are DEFINITELY worth checking out, I about lawled right off my bed at these.
I also found a pretty cool artsy little unique comic, not too long, worth giving a look here @ Sarah and the Seed
If you do/did like Pokemon, these Pokemon redesigns will give you the willies. Go look them over here
When you start thinking about the good things God has done, it gets your mind off the negative and on the positive. I try to have a good attitude as much as I can because I know that is the most Christ-Like way to be, Jesus didn't stand around complaining about all the bad things he was dealing with, he tried to be thankful for the blessings before him and find a way to help anyone and everyone elses. Want to improve your attitude? Here
are some pointers. Check em out.
New songs I found
totally awesome, makes me think of Josh. I love it. great for my smitten playlist.
also amazing, so lyrically talented. amazing vocals too. great vibe. just totally loving it.
tags: game, harry potter, comics, lol, pokemon, jesus, god, christian, music, the xx, islands, stars, boyfriend, relationship, cigarettes, smoking, depression, insomnia